I found that much of what I thought I knew about the condition was wrong . . . and there was much that I didn't know at all. Depressions is a disease. A mental and physical disorder.
It is not a mood. It is not sadness, discouragement, unhappiness, or feeling "blue."
Depression is not feeling depressed, or lonely, or negative.
For me . . . the worst part of being diagnosed as a depressant . . . was that I am a Christian. It seemed to me to be a particular failure. A weakness. A thorn in the flesh.
(2 Corinthians 12:7 "A messenger of Satan, sent to buffet me.")
Paul prayed three times to be delivered from his malady (whatever it was). I must have prayed a thousand times for the removal of mine. Paul got an answer to his prayers ("My Grace is sufficient for you"). I never got one . . . unless Paul's answer is mine, too.
God refused to remove his thorn . . . and mine. So I seek Grace.
This blog is for me . . . I need to chronicle my journey since 2006 . . . and beyond. It may be for you, too.
I have found that depression is not brought on by sin, disobedience to God, or a lack of spiritual fortitude and strength. It can be as much a part of the Believer's life as Paul's thorn was a part of his.
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